Sad

So hard to walk with you.. I found it so hard.. What should I do? I'm not sure.. I'm sad, i pushed you away, I want to make you leave me.. I hate you, I don't want to be with you anymore.. I keep stabbing you, at the same time I'm doing to myself too.. I found another person to talk with, to accompany me and talk to me during my hard time, until i fall asleep at night.. But then, my world can only fit you in..

I hate you..but I need you the most..There are no replacement for you..

But..I must be strong to get through this.. I can make it, I must give my word. I keep telling these to myself.. Don't find you.. I can't! Shall not! Be strong.. I don't need you! I don't need you!! Yeah..right.. T.T